today was the day my heart fell.... gone....
i didnt wanna hurt anyone....
the problem all along was me....
i regret what i did...
i hope i could fix it....
i guess its too late...
i dont think she can accept me again....
she already gave up on me....
i dunno what else to do...
i dunno what else to think....
im all tied up....
stuck.....
how much im sorry means nothing anymore.....
theres no more purpose....
she will never come back....
theres fate....
gone....
i messed up.....
Friday, October 31, 2008
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
its not over
people say if you love someone, you gotta learn to let them go and be happy....
but its not over yet....
there's always hope........
take care always....
hope you always gonna be happy......
but its not over yet....
there's always hope........
take care always....
hope you always gonna be happy......
Sunday, October 12, 2008
TWO DAYS OF NOTHINGNESS
past TWO days was just different from any other day...
everything was a blur,
gotta force yourself to mingle with people even though you are not in the mood,
you gotta force yourself up to start the day,
you feel numb but you ain't drugged up or drunk from any kind of liqour,
the time just goes really slow even though you are busy,
gotta put up a smile on your face even though it kept ending up with a frown,
you try to be normal but yet you are different,
gotta put up a show just to finish the night,
gotta give people advice even though you are hurting inside,
all these for just two days.....
But somewhat i'm glad for it, it made me realize whats important,
what makes someone complete,
what we need to have to get through all the problems we have to face,
who we need to go to when this times come,
who we need to hold on to,
what we need to do to make that person hold our hand, know that that person is holding on and make sure to " NEVER LET GO"
makes you realize what we want to have in the future,
who we wanna be with,
what we wanna do with our lives,
And that makes that "TWO DAYS OF BEING NOTHING" becomes a better person in us,
And someone up there is listening when we do pray, and it was proven.....
everything was a blur,
gotta force yourself to mingle with people even though you are not in the mood,
you gotta force yourself up to start the day,
you feel numb but you ain't drugged up or drunk from any kind of liqour,
the time just goes really slow even though you are busy,
gotta put up a smile on your face even though it kept ending up with a frown,
you try to be normal but yet you are different,
gotta put up a show just to finish the night,
gotta give people advice even though you are hurting inside,
all these for just two days.....
But somewhat i'm glad for it, it made me realize whats important,
what makes someone complete,
what we need to have to get through all the problems we have to face,
who we need to go to when this times come,
who we need to hold on to,
what we need to do to make that person hold our hand, know that that person is holding on and make sure to " NEVER LET GO"
makes you realize what we want to have in the future,
who we wanna be with,
what we wanna do with our lives,
And that makes that "TWO DAYS OF BEING NOTHING" becomes a better person in us,
And someone up there is listening when we do pray, and it was proven.....
Saturday, October 11, 2008
A Question.......
Been hanging out with a friends....
One of my friends started talking about his girl who lives like hours away....
He seem to talk about his relationship with the girl, how they talk on the phone.
But my friend is worried sometimes whenever he doesnt talk to the girl for a day....
I asked why?, he just replied," he doesnt know what she is doin or how is she "
Since sometimes the girl doesn't pick up her phone or call him back or reply to the text messages,
he thinks that the girl is just gonna pick up whenever its convenient for her or something or call whenever. He seem to love the girl, and they see each other... But why is he still worried? I couldn't give him an answer since i don't know the girl that well, He seems to always wonder....
But every time they talk, it seem that nothing is wrong with the relationship, its like a normal one.
The question is?
should he worry?
is it just a trust issue?
what does he need to do?
should he just keep wondering ?
should he always keep expecting for the worst?
He kept saying that he always got alot of question in his head...
One of my friends started talking about his girl who lives like hours away....
He seem to talk about his relationship with the girl, how they talk on the phone.
But my friend is worried sometimes whenever he doesnt talk to the girl for a day....
I asked why?, he just replied," he doesnt know what she is doin or how is she "
Since sometimes the girl doesn't pick up her phone or call him back or reply to the text messages,
he thinks that the girl is just gonna pick up whenever its convenient for her or something or call whenever. He seem to love the girl, and they see each other... But why is he still worried? I couldn't give him an answer since i don't know the girl that well, He seems to always wonder....
But every time they talk, it seem that nothing is wrong with the relationship, its like a normal one.
The question is?
should he worry?
is it just a trust issue?
what does he need to do?
should he just keep wondering ?
should he always keep expecting for the worst?
He kept saying that he always got alot of question in his head...
REPOST.... from LAUNDRYQUEEN
I was browsing today and i found this...
HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE
Most people go into a relationship believing they are “in love”. The sad fact is that most people in our world today do not know what “love” is. Oh, sure we think we do and most of the time we pretend we do, but the reality remains that we are ignorant to the true meaning of the word “love”. This hinders our ability to locate our soul mate and secure a happy and divorce free marriage. This lack of knowledge is leaving the majority of Americans dealing with bouts of depression and feelings of no self worth. With depression they tend to lose themselves under large financial difficulties that are not easily rectified. This creates a less productive and unhappy future for everyone.
The best definition for the word “love” is one I heard only with in the last year. This explanation was given to me and others by a gentle man by the name of Dr. Ray he is a radio D.J. for a national christen radio station. His definition went like this, “Love is a commitment. Not an emotion.” That explanation is such an epiphany for me and I hope for others.
In looking at Dr. Ray’s interpretation of the word “love”, I have realized that we all look at “love” as an emotion. How quick are we to fall victim to our feelings when they are running high in lust for another, and we utter the words “I Love You.” This is not “love”, it is lust and a whole load of other emotions. Granted it feels spectacular and invigorating, this is why it is so easy to get confused. Today’s television programs provide even more confusion, how are we to make a rational assessment of our relationship?
HOW DO YOU KNOW IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE?
HOW DO YOU KNOW WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEONE
Most people go into a relationship believing they are “in love”. The sad fact is that most people in our world today do not know what “love” is. Oh, sure we think we do and most of the time we pretend we do, but the reality remains that we are ignorant to the true meaning of the word “love”. This hinders our ability to locate our soul mate and secure a happy and divorce free marriage. This lack of knowledge is leaving the majority of Americans dealing with bouts of depression and feelings of no self worth. With depression they tend to lose themselves under large financial difficulties that are not easily rectified. This creates a less productive and unhappy future for everyone.
The best definition for the word “love” is one I heard only with in the last year. This explanation was given to me and others by a gentle man by the name of Dr. Ray he is a radio D.J. for a national christen radio station. His definition went like this, “Love is a commitment. Not an emotion.” That explanation is such an epiphany for me and I hope for others.
In looking at Dr. Ray’s interpretation of the word “love”, I have realized that we all look at “love” as an emotion. How quick are we to fall victim to our feelings when they are running high in lust for another, and we utter the words “I Love You.” This is not “love”, it is lust and a whole load of other emotions. Granted it feels spectacular and invigorating, this is why it is so easy to get confused. Today’s television programs provide even more confusion, how are we to make a rational assessment of our relationship?
HOW DO YOU KNOW IF YOU LOVE SOMEONE?
Another Saturday .....
Today is a slow day for me... i dunno why... got up and went to church where i play the drums for... and i got there i felt like i did not want to be there... I was hoping to go home early.
After church went home, now i'm home i dont even wanna be here at home, and later tonight by band is playing at beale st. bar and grill in SF, but yet im not even excited to go. I felt like i just wanna go somewhere but i dunno where. I wanna do something but i dunno what. Now all im doing is just back to sitting infront of the computer and browsin. WTF i dunno whats wrong with me.
After church went home, now i'm home i dont even wanna be here at home, and later tonight by band is playing at beale st. bar and grill in SF, but yet im not even excited to go. I felt like i just wanna go somewhere but i dunno where. I wanna do something but i dunno what. Now all im doing is just back to sitting infront of the computer and browsin. WTF i dunno whats wrong with me.
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